The downside of relationships

May 27th, 2009

Monday night, my older cat, Zachary, wasn’t doing so well, and it worried me enough that we took him to the emergency veterinary hospital.  A few tests later and he’s diagnosed with two masses, probably cancerous, one of which is giving him a great deal of difficulty passing waste.

Surgery to have the masses removed is . . . beyond my means, so the result is that, with some medication, he should have another month or two before keeping him with me becomes inhumane.

I hate that I’m going to have to make that decision, that his decline will be visible and rapid.  I hate that at 16 he probably would have had another handful of years left in him if I only had that kind of money.

This is always so hard.  Pets depend on you.  You’re responsible for them.  And I know there’s nothing more I can be expected to do, but he doesn’t know that.

As with every emotional event beyond my control, I find myself trying to see the up-side, but of course, everything is so insignificant.  I can usually dismiss the things that upset me pretty efficiently, but I can’t do that here.

fuck this dorm, it’s on fire

May 25th, 2009

I continue my quest to find FMA boots (that aren’t over $60). I keep coming so close to them, but there’s always something, and usually, it’s decoration I can’t remove, or too much stitch styling, or whatever else they use to make a boot different enough to catch your eye. If engineer’s boots just DIDN’T HAVE THAT BUCKLE STRAP they’d be just about perfect. Such a time sink.

That was yesterday. TODAY, though, I left my phone at Starbucks. I didn’t know where it was when I realized I didn’t have it, though, so we called the Starbucks to ask if it was out by the couches where we were sitting, and the employee answered that he had just come in and had walked by there and he didn’t see it. He didn’t go out to actually, you know, look. So we drove back and there it was, on the ground next to the couch. Thanks, atypical Starbucks employee.

The funny part was, though, that when I got it back we realized that Lyns had purse-dialed me and left a voicemail, and we could tell by the conversation that she must have dialed as we crossed the street to walk home.

HER PHONE KNEW MINE WAS BEING LEFT THERE. They are meant to be. :<

In other news, this is definitely the last year we do AnimeExpo, if we even go this year with the cosmic forces that are trying to prevent it. Fanime and/or AWA will probably replace it, but that all depends on next year’s circumstances.

he’s just on my mind, okay?

May 2nd, 2009

Roy Mustang

lacidiana tagged me with Roy Mustang!

1. Do you like this character? It really depends on how you–YES

2. What name/s do you call this character? Roy, the colonel, GREED . . . I refer to the other characters in FMA (except Ed and Al) by their last names, except for him.

3. What colors do you associate with this character? blue 8D

4. What songs do you associate with this character? TSUKI NO URAGAWA

5. What blood type do you think this character is? The good one?

6. What character do you like to put with this character? Hugheshugheshugheshughes

7. What would you want to say to this character? You could bring him back.

8. Which do want to do with this character: Shake hands, hug, fuck or kiss? I can’t conceptualize any of those things?

9. Please choose 6 friends with your choice of character.
crazyloststar - Hallelujah
x 6

Today, Yesterday, a Long Time Ago

May 2nd, 2009

I think I was only able to post regularly back in the day when I had no one else to talk to. Now there’s peeps to chat with and I have less to say.

But today, maybe I have things to say! Not all of them are so great though.

Family

In the beginning of April, my grampa had a heart attack and fell and broke his ankle, then had another heart attack while in the hospital. The fam agreed not to resuscitate if it happened again, but then it didn’t. My parents were going to cancel their trip to come out and see me since his condition was so unstable, but he didn’t stick around. A few days later he passed away. He was the last of my grandparents. It was rough not being on the east coast, and it’s still unreal because I’m so far away, but I don’t know that it would have helped to be there. There’s not much I can do with the concept of death.

After the funeral and its related transactions, my parents did come out for their trip as planned. We spent about three days in Disneyland and California adventure. It was a good time; good to have them in SoCal, and I think it was a good break for my mom. This was also my first experience with paid time off.

Cosplay

I think, if I can kick myself into action, I’ll be attempting Ishbal!Roy. I should have just enough material left to make the coat, but I will have to make my own bias tape trim, which I am none too excited about. I do however have the ring and some extra collar plates. I would need to make a new jacket, belt (maybe), over-jacket belt, and overcoat, and I’d have to buy gators to go over the boots.

This is unfortunately the best reference of the uniform I can find at my disposal:

Ishbal Reference 1

But let’s focus on this one instead:

 

Ishbal Reference 2

Nom.

Starbucks

Today they didn’t charge me for the soy in the London Fog I ordered because I’m there so often. I love our Starbucks. I love the people who work in it.

That’s it.

Writing

I haven’t been able to write consistently since college, but recently I’ve been doing pretty well in terms of dedication. I’m steadily plowing through Unconditional, which is the longest fic I’ve attempted, though that’s not saying very much. Anyway, it’s got me actively writing and interested and I’m glad people seem to like it so far because I think I’m so emotionally invested in it that I’d cry if they didn’t. 8D

Gadgetry

Before my parents’ visit, I bought a new camera. I hope it works forever. It’s delightful. It’s a Canon Powershot SX200. Here are the things that make me geek out over it.

  • Need to mute the sounds, but can’t beep beep beep your way through the menu to do it? Fear not, with the right button combination you can mute all the sounds on the fly at startup.
  • It has a cute little stand-alone clock on it.
  • You can temporarily increase the screen brightness without digging through the menu.
  • There are two time settings: one for home and one for travel, and you can flip between them.
  • There’s a timer setting that will wait for you to enter the frame, then it will take the picture.
  • It can automatically detect the scene mode based on its composition.
  • It can automically correct red eye, or in playback mode afterwards.
  • When photographing people, it will alert you if someone’s eyes were closed.
  • It’s blue. I got the blue one.

Most of these things might be standard nowadays, but it’s been a few years since I went camera shopping, and the camera has definitely endeared itself to me. It also seems to take decent pictures, the LCD on the back is ginormous (to me), and despite its relatively small size, it has 12x zoom. (It also has that neat little feature that lets you choose a color, and it will desaturate all other colors.)

More Importantly

In other news, our lease is up. ;lajd;flkajdf

FMA Fanfic: Unconditional - Seven

April 15th, 2009

Unconditional Chapter List

Unconditional - Seven.
by arcanewinter. NC17 4141 Roy*Hughes. Fullmetal Alchemist. AT, pan-series spoilers.
Deceit is a vice Greed can’t endure.

These characters do not belong to me.  I do not profit from this.

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FMA Fanfic: Unconditional - Six

April 15th, 2009

Unconditional Chapter List

Unconditional - Six.
by arcanewinter. R 2870 Roy*Hughes. Fullmetal Alchemist. AT, pan-series spoilers.
Greed’s debts may be too much for him to handle.

These characters do not belong to me.  I do not profit from this.

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FMA Fanfic: Unconditional - Five

April 15th, 2009

Unconditional Chapter List

Unconditional - Five.
by arcanewinter. R 2522 Roy*Hughes. Fullmetal Alchemist. AT, pan-series spoilers.
Pride’s betrayal threatens everything.

These characters do not belong to me.  I do not profit from this.

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FMA Fanfic: Unconditional - Four

April 15th, 2009

Unconditional Chapter List

Unconditional - Four.
by arcanewinter. PG13 1002 Roy*Hughes. Fullmetal Alchemist. AT, pan-series spoilers.
Greed’s shield can only guard him against so much.

These characters do not belong to me.  I do not profit from this.

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FMA Fanfic: Unconditional - Three

April 15th, 2009

Unconditional Chapter List

Unconditional - Three.
by arcanewinter. PG13 486 Roy*Hughes. Fullmetal Alchemist. AT, pan-series spoilers.
Envy can have whatever face he wants, but Greed has only one in mind.

These characters do not belong to me.  I do not profit from this.

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FMA Fanfic: Unconditional - Two

April 15th, 2009

Unconditional Chapter List

Unconditional - Two.
by arcanewinter. PG13 174 Roy*Hughes. Fullmetal Alchemist. AT, pan-series spoilers.
Bartering his soul shouldn’t have been worth it.

These characters do not belong to me.  I do not profit from this.

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